Canola's out

4+

Noah is excited that he is now 4+. He is officially allowed to play with big boy Lego because he is now the same age that is written on big boy Lego boxes. We have been putting off getting all this 'hand me down' Lego out from storage as we knew once he played with it, there would be NO going back to Preschool toys. Thanks for all the Lego Erin & Jarrad. We love it!

lupin flowers

four lads

Living for right now

Yesterday afternoon I spent time with Richard & Noah, just enjoying their company. Honestly I would have loved nothing more than to be cooped up inside with a baby - a girl - a boy - whatever, but sadly that is not my reality. Dealing with second round infertility is shit.

I have been talking with other IVFers of late and they have all shared some really heart wrenching stories. One such story has resinated with me - the story of a friend who spent all of her 20's trying to fall pregnant. She will forever remember her 20's as the years of "trying". I really do not want to look back on my life, especially these beautiful years of Noah's childhood, as the years where I was so wrapped up in what "could be" that I failed to enjoy what I all ready have. I really do have too much of a good thing going on to be devastated by what "might be".

So even if that means catching fly blown sheep with the boys, playing with skeletons in the ram graveyard, guns, shooting and pigeon killing - I am going to enjoy it. These are the things that make up Noah's childhood and I want these memories to remain forefront.

A likeable kid

We had Clancy and his parents stay at our house last Saturday night. Clancy is such a nice little boy. He is pretty placid and easy to get along with. Clancy actually reminds me of Noah at the same age - even though Noah is now quite good at chucking the odd tantrum. I have never thought of Noah being like any other child except for little Clancy. They like the same stuff and everything Clancy's Mum says about him brings back fond memories of Noah at the same age. Clancy however can talk exceptionally well for his age - something my little Noah struggled with.

Naturally we had to take Clancy to catch some tadpoles while on farm stay. He, of course, jumped right in and acted like he had done it 100 times before. No drama from this kid!!!